A few years ago, I was getting sped up. I had been reading, growing, and creating, and I started to feel the need to do more, that I wasn’t doing enough.
Here’s what happened.
I was feeling tired so I decided to take a week off.
People I was speaking to said: ‘I can’t wait to hear your insights when you come back from your week of slowing down.’
And I thought: ‘Oh crap, I need to have an insight. I need to make sure I have something profound to say when I return from this week off.’
On day 1 of my week off, my mind was racing. So, I sat still for 15 minutes.
I noticed I was running as fast as the thinking I was having, but I didn’t know why AND I didn’t know where I was trying to get to. Where the hell was ‘there’ anyway?
In that moment, it stopped making sense to run with the thoughts. So, I chose to stop.
The veil of misunderstanding was lifted.
All that was left was Here.
I realised the truth, that I didn’t NEED to have an insight.
I didn’t NEED to be busy and be having insights and reading and writing and maximising my productivity in every possible way.
I didn’t NEED to DO more.
Instead, I committed to myself, that I was going to do nothing. I did whatever I felt like doing. I laughed, I ate ice-creams, I played with my nieces and nephews, I slept, I loved my family.
I didn’t have any insights.
Until…
I was driving home with my husband. We were having a deep conversation. We were BEING with each other.
And suddenly the insight came through me.
In doing nothing, I was being HERE.
I was being effortless.
I don’t need to DO anything. There is nothing I could do that would make me more whole than I already am.
Because I already AM.
I can’t do more to be more.
I realised that ‘There’ is not a word that needs to exist in my world any longer.
Focusing on ‘there’, takes me away from Here.
‘There’ isn’t a real place.
I can’t be Here and ‘there’ simultaneously.
Being present to Here, is the only way I can truly BE me.
And when I am BEING me, I am BEING effortless.
What’s possible for you, if you drop the T in ‘there’ and start BEING Here?
