I made a bunch of commitments before and I have been feeling really pumped about them.
I began by taking massive action, and then my excitement dwindled a little.
I reviewed my week that time and noticed that I had taken action on most of my commitments but that there were areas that I didn’t quite hit the mark. For example, one of the days, I didn’t meditate because I didn’t wake up in time. I had a late night the night before, that was unplanned, and I felt tired.
I also didn’t look at holiday destinations and I didn’t take as many actions in my business as I had planned.
However, I noticed something quite extraordinary.
Before, I would’ve beaten myself up for this. But this time, I didn’t.
Instead, I saw that I always have a do-over. I can live and learn. For example, I learned that sleeping at 3am is not conducive to a lifestyle of daily meditation (ha!)
I also realised that I can always take action NOW. I can always show up again and live into my commitments. Over and over.
And the truth is that I meditated 6 out of 7 days, I drank 3 litres of water per day, I walked 85k steps, I served at least 15 people, I made a banging bibimbap for date night and most importantly, I had a blast.
My commitments are not about a to-do list and getting shit done. Rather, I am seeing that just because I didn’t do something once, doesn’t mean that I am not being consistent or committed.
I know when I am not living into my commitments at all and I know when I am.
My commitments are not rigid to do lists or targets.
My commitments are living, breathing things that I get to live into again and again.
My commitments are active creations that are allowing my life to unfold with ease and joy.
They are not designed to hit me over the head with.
Whenever I step outside of my commitments, I notice that the more judgment I hold against myself, the harder it is to realign myself back to my word.
In my judgment, I stop taking action completely. I stop to hate on myself, to berate myself and to make myself feel so terrible that I never miss a commitment again!
But every time I do this, the opposite occurs. Berating myself doesn’t make me want to live into my commitments. In fact, I usually stop living into my commitments entirely.
I have discovered that instantly forgiving myself and looking at where I AM being my commitments has allowed me to LOVE myself back into action; rather than mentally whipping myself, which is what I used to do regularly.
It feels refreshing to love myself no matter what, and it’s a more fun way to live.
Because of this extra love I have poured into myself this week, the quality of my time spent living my commitments has been greater.
I haven’t quite completed everything as per the ‘perfect plan’ so far, but I have shown up and loved myself and lived into my commitments to the best of my ability.
I have moved my body.
I have nourished my body.
I have nourished my mind.
I have slept well.
I have served and helped people.
I have posted gifts to people.
I have given my time freely and without agenda.
And I am seeing the space that I have yet to grow into as a beautiful opportunity to love myself more deeply.
I’d love to know – comment what does being committed mean to you?
Love
Rajni π
TBWMLC
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