A few years ago I used to binge eat a lot.
The thing is, the judgment I was holding on myself was perpetuating the very behaviour I wanted to drop.
I was believing that if I ate the junk food in the moment, then it would make me feel better, less stressed and satisfied.
But the comfort was short-lived. Once it wore off, I’d feel a wave of shame. And then I’d eat something else so I could feel the comfort again.
I was operating inside of a misunderstanding.
When I really slowed down, I saw the truth that I already know.
Nothing outside of myself can deliver any feelings inside me. Eating wasn’t going to provide me with the feelings I was craving. It is only the thinking I am attaching to that is creating feelings within me.
When I caught this, I had a big internal shift. I remembered that I was not the thinking that I experienced.
I could see straight through the misunderstanding for the first time, and it stopped making sense for me to binge on junk food.
I could see that it was just a thought in the moment that didn’t require action.
I haven’t bypassed the thoughts, ignored or repressed them. Instead, I have seen through them.
I have realised they don’t make sense to act on because binge eating isn’t going to deliver me anything that I want, so I don’t need to do it.
The ego can get tricky sometimes, but I am seeing through thought more and more, in every area of my life. And I am always gently returned to my true nature, without judgement.
